The Day My Bestfriend Became My sister

so may 28th will no longer be just another day, but a day that marks when my bestfriend became my sister. 

i met jade in 2010, second semester, grade 9 business class. we actually graduated from the same elementary school but she was not on my radar. i had no idea who she was. she only came to our elementary school in grade 8, so i didn't really have a desire to get to know the new kid. (i know, i know. kinda mean). and so, when she got assigned to sit next to me the first day of that class four years ago, i didn't know what to expect. but to both of our surprise (or maybe we weren't so surprised?) we became instant bestfriends. we literally spent all our time together and quickly became known to be the ones who laughed too much, talked to much and were distracted/distracting often. 

Our grade 9 selfie, so cute. 

i remember and so does jade, how we used to send emails back and forth to each other all throughout class when we literally sat right next to each other. it was so fun to have our secret "language" and being able to talk all throughout class without ever getting in trouble:) 

as most everyone knows, i grew up in a Christian home. i went to church my whole life, but up until grade 9 i never owned my faith or really took it seriously. the summer of grade 8 to 9 is when i basically recommitted my life to Christ. but i still was not very vocal about it, people just knew. jade knew too and she came to youth with me every once in a while. everyone loved her and life was great. 

in grade 10 when my dad got sick (you can read that story here) was when my faith was really tested. but God provided and showed Himself so many times through that journey, that my faith and love for Him just grew stronger and He became more and more real in my life. jade of course was with me through all of it. as a friend and supporter, offering love and laughter when i needed to forget all the bad stuff that was going on. 

in grade 11 i went on a missions trip to Barbados and the same year i was baptized. God continued to be there for me and become more and more real in my life. but it wasn't until this past year when something changed. i became more vocal about my faith. i believe it was because i was spending more and more time with Christian friends who were so passionate about God and not afraid to share it with the world. i have grown a lot and i have been reading the bible more than i ever have in the past year. so then God placed jade on my heart. 

around easter was when my friend kayla and i really began talking and praying for our unsaved friends. doing so encouraged me more and more and really just affirmed that i needed to help them on their walk and allow God to really use me.

Kayla & I 

jade and i have spent so many hours talking about Jesus and what this is all about over the past couple months. i wanted to be so open with her and i continued to be vocal about it. due to my walk with God and all He was doing, as i was reading more and praying more, a fire was lit inside of me and a new passion to help my dearest friend come to know the Lord. 

the week of may 28th, i had been slacking a bit in reading and praying.. i was being lazy. but on may 28th when i had to go to the bank, i asked jade to go with me and we went for a walk there. earlier in the month i had downloaded the bible app for her on her phone. so after we went to the bank, there was some benches outside and we decided to sit down. 

jade and i are the type of friends that we can sit in total silence and be so comfortable and not have an issue at all. we just enjoy each other's company. and so we sat talking about a few things but then we just sat in silence for a while. later, i found myself asking her if she had read the bible lately. she said she had but it was hard. then we just started talking about all kinds of things related to that. the whole time talking with jade, i was also asking God to use me and for the Holy Spirit to speak through me. to be honest, i do not remember that entire conversation because God really spoke through me the whole time. whenever i talk about God, there's this fire inside of me that is ignited,  and my passion shows. and so i just got more and more passionate and finally i asked her if she wants a relationship with her Creator. if she knows that He created her, that He created everything and if she believes that He sacrificed His Son for her so that she could have a relationship with Him, then, does she want that. and she said YES! finally, after months of talking about things and saying she would want to eventually, she finally decided that it was time! and boy was i high on the Spirit. i felt so incredibly blessed to be a part of that experience and to be a part of jade's journey. 

my bestfriend became my sister that day. we are going to live forever with our Creator who is our Relentless Lover, who is pursuing us as a bridegroom pursues his bride. and we couldn't be more joyful! 

this journey is just beginning, jade's new life began that day and it is going to be challenging, painful, wonderful and powerful, it already is. but i know that God has such an amazing plan for her life and i am so blessed to be a part of it and a part of her story and she a part of mine. 

please pray as we journey together through something neither of us have experienced before. (her being new to the faith after living 18 years a certain way, and me for being a supporter and encouragement for my sister in her new faith!)

with God, all things are possible. and we are ready for anything. 
In omnia paratus

a passion and importance

my whole life i have had a passion for kids. i love working with kids, spending time with them and volunteering with the children's ministry at church. i babysit for all different families and i aspire to be a mother of three (at least). i cannot wait to start a family of my own, have a husband and children who all love and serve the Lord. if i could be a stay at home mother my entire life, i would do that. but as of now, i am in school to become a teacher. that way, i won't just be working with kids, but i will be impacting their lives in ways i cannot even imagine. but again, wherever He leads, i will follow. so whatever the plan is that He has in mind, i am ready for anything. 

aside from that passion in life, i want to share something that i have come to realize as being a huge importance. that is, praying for our kids. a couple weeks ago, i had an opportunity to babysit for a family from my church who have three kids; 2 boys and a girl. when it was time for bed, the little girl who is the youngest, just two years old, got so scared of the dark when i turned out her light. she cried and cried, and then her brothers said to me that she needs to be cuddled before she can fall asleep. 

well, i then went in her room with the lights still out and as i scooped her up, she clung to me so tightly by wrapping her whole body around me. i just felt so much love for her as i began to rock her and calm her down. i then began to pray for her. she was scared of the dark, scared of being alone, and so i just began to whisper prayers to Jesus asking Him to be with her, give her peace and knowing that He is with her. then i began to just pray into her life and pray for the woman of God that she is going to become. then she fell asleep in my arms, and i was able to lay her head down without her waking up. 

i just felt in that moment how truly important and how powerful praying for a child can be. in the moment, it is beautiful to be a part of God working, and to have God answer prayers right away, like He did with me. but in general as well, praying for and with our children is so vital. we have the power of influence in their lives, they look up to us, they listen to us and our prayers work. they will learn how Jesus hears all their prayers and we need to be praying for our children, as they will be growing up in this ever changing world with sin all around. the devil doesn't want our children to grow up as strong young men and women of God, he wants them destroyed, and far from God. we must not let that happen. 

and so, one day God is going to fulfill the desires that i have in my heart. the desire for a family, for a husband and children who all love and serve the Lord. and as He has shown me, i hope you all begin to see how praying for our children is important and influential- something we should do with them and something we should do for them. 

so, once your children begin to understand and realize how powerful prayer is, i hope you are ready for anything:)

in omnia paratus

the importance of prayer

prayer is so important, in any of our lives. prayer is an open line of communication with our Lord, our Creator. we can pray at any time of day, and say anything that we like. what i love about God is that i can talk to Him like He is literally there in the room with me, and that is exactly what i do. i know in my heart and my spirit knows that Jesus really is here with me, and so i talk to Him all throughout the day wherever i am. 

it has taken me years to get to a point where i pray, and pray often. for some people, praying is hard. they believe it has to be laid out, there must be a formula for praying to God. but it's actually quite the opposite. Jesus already knows your heart, He knew you before you were created, before the Earth was formed, and still He knows your name. He is with you and knows how you are feeling, what you are going through and He knows what you need even before you ask Him for it.

praying also is not just for asking for things, it is a conversation. we can talk to God about anything, but thanking Him for all He has done, and what He has given you is also very important. if you had a friend who only talked to you when they needed something from you, how would that make you feel? that's how God feels when all you talk to Him about is what you need, and then don't say anything the rest of the time. 

we must keep the line of communication open. conversation goes two ways, and if all we do is pray to ask for things, we are closing the line of communication and not even giving Him a chance to respond. spending time in prayer is so important, just being in His presence is so amazing. the fact we can have an open line of communication anywhere we are without having to do anything is pretty incredible. i mean, that's how you know that God is a God of love. He loves us so much that He sent His only Son to reconcile the relationship that was broken when sin entered the world. since Jesus came and reconciled our relationship, we can now talk to Him any time and remain in His presence. 

sometimes, i can't say anything at all when i am praying. i just sit still and listen. calm my heart and mind and just wait on God. other times, i talk so much and so fast that sometimes, i forget that He can talk back. that's why it's important to take quiet time in order to hear what HE has to say to US. 

also, first hand, i know that prayer works. when you do ask for things from God, He hears us and wants to answer our prayers, in His timing. even if our prayers seem silly, "Lord, please help me find my keys" or "God, please help me find a parking space" He answers them. and when He does, we need to remember to thank Him for answering our prayers. sometimes when we find a parking space after saying that prayer, we just think "YES" and move on with our life. but if we prayed for that, even though it was simple and silly, to God, He gave you that parking space because He loves you. we have to thank Him for that.

aside from silly things, God answers big prayers too. our God is all powerful, He is not limited to this world and the rules of this world. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD. no matter how big something may seem, God is bigger. He has the power to change any situation, no matter what it is. first hand, i have witnessed this. and sometimes it takes years, but when you are faithful through everything, God is faithful too. my family is still together and still here, even though we have been through some of the toughest situations. we are still here. God works, and prayer works. i have also witnessed healing right in front of me and been a part of praying for a person to be healed, and they were. that's how i know that prayer works and that God is real. 

i hope this post encourages you to work on your prayer life with Jesus. just know that even if you aren't praying, or communicating with Him, He's still with you regardless. all He wants is to talk with you, have a relationship with you, and He wants to give you the desires of your heart. all you have to do is ask. He loves you so much, He has proven that and He proves that over and over. 

once you open that line of communication, i hope you're ready for anything
in omnia paratus