some pics from the 21st shindig

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S'Wonderful

The old chipper me is back:) and without a vengeance~ Guess I've finally come to that stage where that wound has healed and I can just feel that this year will be a big hit for me. With much hard work, I believe I can rightly call myself a accounting/law graduate by the end of this year! Although so much shit has happened in the past two years, I believe this year is going to change. I've worked on the other relationships I've neglected in my life with God, close friends, family and last but not least Samson. Lots of time and effort have gone into enriching these relationships because they just soo soo important to all of us. With more love, care and support from all, we strengthen ourselves and increase our ability to brave everything that comes our way!

Already, 2007 has marked an important year for my best friend, Nicola. She finally got the chance to live out the dream we always talked about back in year 11 and 12. ANU law school~! And although I'll miss all our spontaneous coffee/movies/sleepover nights, not having her around would be the teensiest sacrifice to make for her to finally do what makes her happy. 2007 also rings the wedding bells for my old time friend, Mingdao and his future wife-to-be, Claire. This year also spells a change in career for me hopefully... I'm job hunting at the moment and filling out college applications for further studies in law or accounting and maybe even finance if the job hunt became nothing but a fruitless attempt. All in all, I like the sound of the year already:)

Last but not least, I turn 21 this year:( Jaclyn has to grow up and act more like an adult. That means less whinging and more constructive critisism? Who knows, we'll wait and see. Can't wait to see canberra! S'wonderful, s'marvelous!

Singles RSVP

So, I've just tried out the RSVP website. Don't worry, I didn't intentionally go to the site, it came up as a pop up I swear! But if you ever get bored at home, these singles websites can be pretty funny sites to read. Like for example, I searched for males aged 20-25 and I had a 100 hits. I saw a few better looking men and I clicked to see their profile. Some of them actually sound pretty decent... So now i know if i hit 35 and i'm still single, this is where i'll be hanging out eh? So I came across 2 rather "colourful" characters. One somewhat reminded me of a hybrid of Harry and Wilson. Its very strange... and the other is just adorable. The adorable one said:

I promise I will lie when they ask how we met!! ;) What do I say here... In one word I'm "humuoroussensitivecharmingtalkativeactive", ok its not really a word but it beats "im easy going" arghhh :)

And the weird hybrid said:


Run away little girl....
"The typical cycle: Meet girl, go out a few times, have a wild time. Cool off. This is the MO in clubs and the internet personals is no different.

I am a product of the stimulation age. There is no past or future. Only the obvious present. When I am with you I am 100% there, and when we are apart I move on to something else. No agenda and very little planning.

We meet over drinks, hang out for a while downtown, and see how far the chemistry takes us. We might even have sweaty back-breaking sex after. Or we wait until another day. Or we never see each other again because the passion wasn't there. Whatever happens happens. Can you handle lack of certainty?

Almost all women ask me this. What was my longest relationship - answer, 1 year. Have I ever been in love? Once, many years ago. Doesn't count anymore.

Arguing with me won't help. Neither will trying to get to the bottom of this "crisis". I will simply smile, say "whatever", and change the subject.

I like people who are genuine and who don't take comfort in empty promises. There are no promises in this world, only words people say for the sake of the "in", and the fools who believe the lies.

You have to know what you want, and be mentally strong enough to accept your natural energy responses as a woman. I don't do fixer-uppers. At most I am friends with fixer-uppers, but I don't try to change them, or co-exist with them romantically.

For hobbies, I like clubs, drinks, movies, music and magic. I often wonder why it hasn't become mainstream. I guess it's just one of those things - that to get it, you have to get it.

If all this is up your alley, get in touch

He's that type of person you feel like strangling! URgh!

somewhere over the rainbow

Needless to say, Christmas is near and I'm still feeling quite blue. Everything has been so messed up lately. My crying spells has decreased but the pain's still eating the heart and mind away. Many good things have come in small packages though. My new car has arrived, my mum's going away for the weekend, Nic's lending me her laguna beach dvd boxset, my manager's leaving the company and Johnny has given my VIP access to Hemmesphere, one of the hottest spots to be seen in on a Saturday night.

Was doing my christmas grocery shopping yesterday at Woolworths and I saw this asian guy going about his night filler duties. I did the most pathetic thing and I followed him with the corner of my eye. He reminded me so much of Harry. I was overcome with emotion and it felt like my eyes were welling up and my heart beat like 10 times faster. I suddenly really missed him. I thought back at the days where I'd used to finish my homework faster just so I could drive out to the supermarket to see him, stacking shelves while we took sneak peeks at each other pretending not to know each other, that he wasn't slacking off. I really do miss him from time to time. I wish none of this had happened. But it is and I'm finding it so hard to forget the man i thought i was going to spend at least a good half of my life with. I wish i had his strength, courage and determination to move on so quickly. I wish that when i said that i loved him he'd believe me. I wish he knew how much I cared about him and how I never stopped thinking about him. Its all impossible now when i know that he only rolls his eyes at such thought. If only he changed his mind about me, would it make everything better? Would I be able to bring myself to forgive him? What's more, would i be able to live with myself for being so weak and silly? How many roads must a poor boy take before he can be called a man?

Shakespeare Prodigy

By God! I'd say he's finally got it! Ian has the gift of writing absolutely marvelous poetry that I could only dream of having. Its a pity he hasn't a girlfriend. He writes so good. He can easily sweep girls off their feet with that kind of stuff. Amazing... just pure amazing. Here's a sample of what he can do.

The op’ning of her eyes doth herald the morning break,
Forth to flood the world with warmth anew.
Yet such warmth shall ne’er compare that from her!
A Tenderness beyond breath or touch,
But felt through the gazing of eyes to eyes,
And a kindling of ever-twined souls.

Dawn’s garden song proves sweeter than the day ‘fore,
Yet pales in compare to the song that my Love sings.
Not with voice alone or solitarily her melody doth she make,
But all creation shall in united chorus rejoice with her,
And make such angelic sound that all the world shall hear,
And know the beauty that rivals the morning – She.

And having stirred from Edenic slumber,
The ground she graces with gracious steps
Where roses with tulips bid homage their diety!
For who shall compare to Beauty Incarnate, Aphrodite?
Resplendent her glow, the True Sun of the Earth,
And all creation basks in the sunlight of her beauty!

About her work she labours on, tending flo’er and tree,
With supple affectionate hands.
And there amidst her garden stands
The beauteous Gardener - She
Yet for all the splendor of creation, ne’er would I miss,
One moment of her beholding, one moment of this bliss.

And should this be denied me,
Then come forth and take mine eyes,
For what more shall they hope behold,
Than the beauty that in her doth lie!


Love it love it love it! Ah I wish I had his talent.

a gift

the pieces that once used to fit so perfectly.

Behind every dark cloud, there's a silver lining

Fuck it. I've moped, sobbed, dwelled and cracked all the sick jokes I possibly could with my predicament. It's this time I've finally surrendered to the stronger and taller Jackie within me to end all my ridiculous and incessant whining as to why Harry chose to leave. Why did I dwell upon such negativity? Could it really be like what Harry said about me being too upset and too pissed off to really understand where he's coming from? Perhaps so but the epitome of such obnoxious behavior from me must really stem from my denial of a lost of a best friend. One I held so closely to my heart and vowed never to lose. I've failed him and I've failed myself but who's really to blame in the face of all these? I can no longer try to comprehend for my heart's been weary and my mind encumbered with trivial and frivolous memories of what he used to be and his words of love and wisdom. What seemed to be the very foundation of our past relationship has been shaken, or worse could have been non-existent all along. Were we mislead? Were we foolish enough to believe that a future beholds and awaits us? Time waits for no one as they all say. I've finally had my first hand experience. I have no power to relive the past. Time has marched on past me and I missed it all. I missed all the crucial hints and signs that screamed at me to move and march on with it. But alas, friends and family have kicked me in the butt to wake me up. I really cannot handle breakups well, and I haven't the strength to befriend the person that has chosen the reality I onced feared so greatly. I'm not ready to deal with him and his harshness just yet, so why pretend I can? Should I even subject myself to such vulnerability? Shouldn't I rise above all that's happening and embrace the chance to be the person my parents and my Father had brought me up to be? Surely, dad hasn't spent more than a fortune and time on my private education for me to be bullied and trampled by this. I was raised to be stronger than that, am I not? For in the face of adversity, didn't the Father say that no one will be able to stand up against me for all the days of my life? I am not alone for as He was with Moses, so will He be with me, never to leave, never to forsake me. So I shall be strong and courageous for life is a battlefield, I can either enter it equipped and prepared or surrender to it unarmed. Friends and family, be rest assured I will make the right choice and decisions not to be foolish anymore. I will pick myself up, dust myself off and in turn start all over again for behind every dark cloud, there's a silver lining. I have faith and hope that things will pick up from here. I will open my eye to see all that's wonderful once again.