cram time

nothing new to report here heath wise. everyone is the same. only dad is slowly declining. he has treatment next friday, which will actually be my first day off after all my exams. 

but right now, it is cram time. for me, this is the last week of class before a week of exams. this is the time to study, manage my time efficiently and lose hours of sleep. honestly, i can feel myself getting sick and i feel like this always happens around exams. my sleep schedule is a little messed up but i am trying to get into a better routine so i do not run myself down. 

i know things will work themself out, just praying God will get me through these next two weeks so i can finish my first year with a bang! 

i am ready for anything (just sickness stay away please!)
In omnia paratus

only because of God

so yesterday we got some pretty crazy news. to some, these numbers seem like not that big of a deal, but to my mom and my family, they mean so much. 

as i have said before in a previous post, my mother's kidneys were at 21%. that meant that we were going to be starting the process of assessment to see if i was (am) fit to donate a kidney and also my mom would have begun the assessment and prepared for dialysis. 

well, last week my mom went in for more blood work and yesterday we were informed that my mom's kidneys are now at 26%! they went up 5%. there is no explanation for them going back up in percentage, except to say that it was a random blip for them being so low before. but i know, that it is only because of God that they went up in percentage. now we don't have to worry or even think about the assessment anymore and we can just focus on staying healthy and doing everything right to help my mom maintain her kidney's functioning levels. 

this is the news our family needed right now. to know that our prayers have been answered and that God has essentially extended my mom's life and gave us a peace about this journey, feels so good. i am blessed to be part of a family who is strong, even through the worst and most difficult times. and i am overwhelmed with love and joy for my Father in heaven who sees and hears our needs and meets them when we cry out. 

our family is ready for whatever God has in store for us 
In omnia paratus 

we will get a better picture soon ;)

a much needed friday

this past friday was much needed. i spend a lot of time alone; studying, doing homework, watching tv.. but there is just something about being surrounded by girlfriends who love and care about you. it's a second support system, besides family. and everyone needs that. 

on friday, my best friend came over to hangout and do my hair for a birthday party i was going to that night. i feel blessed to have talented friends. i cannot curl my hair for the life of me, last time i did, i burned my neck so badly that i have a permanent scar. it's so nice when i get to see my friend, since we are both in post-secondary school we have to really make a plan to see each other. but fridays have become our day since we both don't have class. it was awesome to hangout, talk and get ready! this is her finished product.. see what i mean! talent! 

that night, i got to meet up with another friend of mine to go to our friend's birthday party! it was so nice to be surrounded by girls who all have a passion for Jesus, talk and watch the movie Frozen. just being in company with others who are so sweet and funny is awesome and really good for the soul. i did not know every one of these ladies when i went to the party, but they were all so lovely to be around. 

and these two girls i am so blessed to know and have in my life. so happy God gave me them to go through life and university together. birthday girl in the middle! 

new friends are such a lovely thing. i can't wait to see and meet all the people God is going to put in my path. 

i am ready for anything. 

In omnia paratus

every day is full of surprises

when i say that, i mean that sometimes things happen unexpectedly. "surprise" sounds like a great thing, but sometimes surprises are not so fun. although, in my case, so far the start of my day has been a nice surprise.

every day that i have school, i have class at 11 and don't usually wake up until 10 or 10:30. it takes me less than 10 mins to walk to school so that is never a problem. today however, i do not have school and i woke up at 8:30! that was a surprise. i cannot figure out why i woke up so early, all that matters is i did and i have gotten so much done already, all before 11 am. 

i am enjoying this new journey that God and i are on and waking up early has allowed me to spend more time with Him and more time getting things done. i have always been the pro-procrastinator in my fam, but i am working on that. and i have found that waking up early feels good, especially when i get things done that i have been procrastinating all week. 

so, every day is full of surprises and i am looking forward to what else is in store for today. my best friend in the world is coming over today to do my hair for a birthday party i am going to tonight for another friend. i can't wait. 

i am ready for anything! 
In omnia paratus

most important part of the day

since i was young, my parents have taught me that breakfast is the most important meal of the day. we are taught that in school too. it's preached to us everywhere. but as students, breakfast sometimes gets forgotten. i know for me, i would rather get an extra 10 mins of sleep then wake up and make a decent meal. but now that there is an urgency for me to be healthy, the morning has become my time to set the pace for the day. 

a healthy breakfast is so important. not just breakfast, but a healthy balanced breakfast. this has been hard for me to accomplish, as i am more a toast kind of gal, and that's it. but lately i have been trying new things. for breakfast the past couple of days i have been having this combination of food! 

-orange juice 

-one piece of toast w/ peanut butter

-scrambled eggs with salt&pepper

-fruit (strawberries&grapes) mixed with yogurt and hemp seeds. 

preparing my breakfast makes me feel so good. and taking the time to make food i know is healthy for my body feels awesome. i actually enjoy preparing food, laziness has always just been the problem. but no longer. 

besides eating a properly balanced breakfast, spending time with God is so important in the morning. i am learning how much better of a day you have when you start it off right. stretching in the morning while praying is good too. you get your body ready for the day and you get your heart in the right place. it's been a great time and i am looking forward to what God is going to do with me now that i am getting my life on track. 

i am ready for anything. 

in omnia paratus

a new urgency

i struggle with wanting to know the details of every event in my life. i want to know everything; who, what, when, where, why and how. but i am learning that one cannot know everything. and i have to put my faith and trust in God for the outcomes of situations. 

right now, i am faced with a situation in which i do not know the details of. i need to start eating healthy and exercising. there is an urgency for me to start taking care of my body. firstly, because i know i should do this for my own health and for myself. but, like many others, i am lazy and i don't feel the need to always be worried about healthy food choices or being active. and secondly, i have an opportunity to possibly save a life. 

my mother has acute kidney disease. her kidneys are functioning at only 21% and they are dropping rapidly. her kidneys have been pretty stable, but at her last 3 month appt we found out that they dropped 8%, which is huge. 

upon finding out that my mother has this disease, i prayed about it and came to the conclusion that i would donate a kidney to her when it came down to that. i want my mother at my wedding and she means the world to me. this body isn't mine, it is a gift from God and if i have a kidney that i literally do not need, then i am more than willing to give it to my mum. 

but, since the recent drop in her kidney's functioning, the process of assessing whether i am fit for donating to her will soon begin. we have to see if we are a match. after, i will have my own team of doctors and psychologists to assess me personally. my body health and my mental health. 

this is why there is a new urgency for me to eat healthy and keep my body active. i do not want anything that i can control, to be a problem for me to donate. i don't know how this will all turn out. i do not know if i will be fit to donate, if we will be compatible, or if it will work. i do know that God is bigger, God has a plan and that God will be there with us through whatever happens. 

and so, i am ready for anything. 

In omnia paratus.